Yesterday my main computer died.. exactly 2 weeks after it’s warranty expired. Putting aside my displeasure over this something else occurred, something far more troubling & far more costly to me in terms of general life. As many of you know, I have more than a`passing interest in computer tech, the system had been acting oddly for several days, as I’d recently installed software upgrades I decided to ignore my gut instinct that told me I had a power supply going bad. I spent hours checking the memory, hard drive, I formatted the drive, attempted to reinstall the operating system.Opened the case, checked fans, blew everything out with compressed air till finally the system wouldn’t boot because….. insert a drum roll here please..
the power supply gave up the ghost
In reviewing things this morning it occurred to me that I do this a LOT.. I form a perfectly valid professional opinion based upon experience & second guess myself right out of that opinion. Lord knows how many hours & how many opportunities I’ve wasted because of my tendency to not value my own expertise & instincts ! My husband, kind soul that he is offered up the thought that I knew what was wrong but was hoping that I was wrong as the power supply is proprietary & expensive. Kind words indeed but totally ignoring the fact that my time has a value, I wasted a bunch of billable hours, time that would have paid for several power supplies.
Why as women do we do this, why do we not value our education, life & work experiences enough to trust our guts? Why are we afraid to gather those resources & use them to make straight forward decisions personally or professionally?
New parts are on their way to my house, the computer will be rebuilt by the weekend, the problem solved. That dead power supply ? it’s going to be be painted & engraved with the words ‘go with your gut” & kept on my desk to remind me that if I don’t value my knowledge & expertise nobody else will either.
Do you value your knowledge or do you second guess yourself right out of the race?