Some of you are aware that I have been struggling with health issues for quite awhile. First came the colitis and a steroid to treat the condition. Next came the heart palpitations that left me staggering and almost fainting. A two day Holter Monitor test earned me a Cardiologist and a Stress Echo exam. I got through the stress test… yes! I do indeed have a heart! but ( there is always a but isn’t there?) the good Doctor says the ejection rate for my heart isn’t normal, a healthy heart is 55% mine is somewhere south of that number.
Next up, my physical exam ( note to self stacking appointments on the same day is probably not a good idea going forward.) Everything is just great, except I am a little fat (shocking announcement ;) and oh, by the way you have a hard lymph node on the right side of your neck, you need an ultra sound and a CAT scan of the soft tissues of your neck. And for the cherry on top I have a bad molar that needs to come out. Try getting an appointment with a oral surgeon three weeks before Christmas with a new cardiac condition, lol!
To say that I am scared would be an understatement. Now I wait for Stress Echo final results, I wait 10 more days for the ultrasound of my neck. I try to remain calm while adjusting to meds to regulate my heart and begin a new med to try to heal my gut. I try to quiet my inner drama queen who is imagining the worst possible outcomes of these situations. Dr Google is definitely not your friend at 3am and I frequently must force myself over to YouTube for some funny cat videos.
The meme “Keep Calm and Carry On” is about the only mantra that works for me right about now. I need to prepare for Christmas for my family, I need to drag myself to work and be as productive as possible. I sit, I wait, I try not to worry … and I so wish that all of this wasn’t about me or anybody else for that matter.